I can assure you I didn't mean to get this passionate about her...
i believe you, wander. but u know--she might say the same thing!!
passion has destroyed kingdoms, and created happy unions. throughout history, for millennia...this is our fate as humans. it was probably a lot easier when wealthy landed-gentry betrothed their offspring at birth, when marriage was basically a business deal for our forebears. but even then, people rebelled.
i focused on the Bangkok example as it's discrete--easy to encapsulate. were i to detail all my civvie-adventures/misadventures in the romantic realm...well, this board's not about civvies, so i can't. but i've been through many of the feelings you describe. just not with WGs.
bottom line: treasure those memories and try to discard regret. we never know where The Other Path may have led. i always think of when i was a nerdy high school kid desperate to get laid. all the Popular Cliques (sports-stars, cheerleaders, etc) thought i was a total loser. but i got some perspective and some game. now i think: i've been all over the world, been involved with some amazing civvies, and as for the WG thing: i've done stuff in my Bangkok living-room that gives me a stiffie if i even THINK about it. so all the football-stars now worrying about how to get their kids out of the house or outta jail while that formerly-stunning now-300-pound cheerleader screams at them about the snow tires on the pickup truck--OK, who's pussying out NOW??
mixed metaphors but you get my drift. u don't know WHAT'S gonna be said at the pearly gates until u get there. my guess is St Pete will give the thumbs-up and say: "you lucky mother!"
JtB |
