I thought I'd just get a few thoughts off my chest and this seems like the place to do it. Don't worry, I'm not expecting a bunch of sympathy or anything
So, basically, my SO and I have vastly different sex drives. I need it every day - she's up for it maybe once a month, if I'm lucky. This hasn't always been the case but certainly for the last three years or so. There's surely some underlying problem that we should iron out but I don't know what. I used to drink too much, for sure. But I've practically stopped now. Maybe I'm just a crap lay but I genuinely believe I'm not!
I've been taking care of business myself for a while ... watching (secretly) a ton of porn. But it's getting tedious, hence my recent sauna trip. And although nothing happened then, I'm starting to think it's inevitable I'll end up taking it to the next level. Sometimes (normally post wank), I'll think to myself that I'm an idiot for considering using a WG. Then, when I have the horn, I justify it to myself in all sorts of ways. I know if I got caught it would be the end of the relationship.
Anyway, you'll know if I go through with it as I'll no doubt write a report. It's all part of the therapy!