You're not kidding it's tough to leave! Yes, my wife was extremely physically attractive and personable in every way... Every guy thought I had the catch of the century. Add three kids, and it made walking away virtually impossible. I played around for 10 years before she found out and kicked me out for good... and that was only because my mistress' ex-BF called my wife and read her the contents of emails I had sent to my mistress (after he hacked onto her computer and found them).
It took me about two weeks of depressive silence sitting alone in our vacation house in the mountains to realise that our relationship was totally dysfunctional, and that the ex-BF had actually done me an invaluable favour. It is now obvious in hindsight that we were two trains on the same track, headed inexorably toward a collision. Anyone viewing the trains from above could have seen what was going to happen. But for the two of us, each riding our own train, it came as a big surprise...
I don't think my ex-wife is attracted to women in the least. I think she is simply asexual. I should have seen this coming... She identifies very strongly with her mother. Her father walked out on her mother when she (her mother) was 39. The mother later went out on one date -- decided it was too much trouble -- and never dated again. I am virtually sure that her mother has not had sex with a man since her husband left 43 years ago. There's a message there that I should have read more carefully, LOL! And I would be willing to bet good money that my ex-wife will follow in her mother's footsteps... and never have sex again either.
I guess I'll have to do the Lord's work for all three of us!
Have fun, CGP