So I started a long time ago, had my time at Bonham 123 in HK, and around. But the experience that somewhat was traumatizing was when I was 17, I visited Bonham. Went into a room, and met this provider who was hanging with one of the neighboring providers. They both giggled excitedly and asked me to join them. Being young and naive, and the fantasy of being with two women got me too horny, and I said yes. Surprisingly wasn't too expensive, but they took me into shower. Afterwards, they plopped me onto the bed, and started catbathing my body. The neighboring provider said she needed to close up her room, so she went out for a second and the other stayed with me. She was probably mid 30s, and started making out with me, got ontop, and shoved her pussy down.... without a condom. I was shocked and confused, and not sure what to think. She rode me like crazy and my mind went numb and ended up . She sat down when I told her, and ended up filling her up. The other girl came back and was disappointed that I was done, but I was so freaked out and I didn't know what else to do. I don't even know what happened and honestly it kind of scares me not knowing if I have a kid out there or not.

Fast forward to today. I'm addicted to mongering, and everytime I do the deed, I end up feeling like shit. Not sure what to do, and it doesn't seem like I can escape my demons.


Sorry if this is the wrong place to post, but also thanks for reading my rant. Didn't know where else to go.

if you write and post your experience right after yore deed you will not feel shitty anymore ... try it, I'm serious

I was mongering at young age (3-4 times a week), some of them are friendly type (not for money), most bars, restaurant type for almost 2 years, I never felt bad and always remembering those good old days... stopped it for almost 15 years, and then started now but I dont get any girlfriend type, so go to this girls for money (its costly in US), so commiting myself 3-4 times a month but still feel happy about it.

To answer you, its nothing wrong, just take care of your health by using protection, BBJ is fine but dont entertain the full service without condom. Cherish the moments, you might stop one-day when you get your soulmate!!! Until then have fun

Really appreciate this! I think its how the society paints it that gets in my head and i guess i sometimes use it to cope with shit. But thanks for talking about your experience

@incognito1234: there are moments, the most was 4 times in a week

@jayme: i have hobbies, but I think its a coping issue/im making excuses for it to happen

@manhands: appreciate that man, yeah i try to differentiate it, but sometimes i feel like it creeps into relationships, and sex no longer feels normal or good enough with a partner

Haha I’ll give it a shot next time

Ethics and morality aside, it is legal in Hong Kong in a one woman walk up.  I wouldn’t worry about having a kid out there.  Unless they were looking for a meal ticket she wouldn’t want to be put out of commission for a few months to have a baby so probably on the pill.  Think of it as a physical release and non emotional.

Mongering in the US or where it is illegal brings up a whole set of different issues.

Focus more on what you enjoyed about the session than you did a bad thing.

I love to gape the girls pussy and finish CIM so if these things go well I leave happy.

I could leave thinking I did a bad thing opening that girls pussy and looking inside her before I almost choke her with cum but reality is there is no reason for guilt imo. If I did something outside the boundaries of what I feel comfortable with no doubt I'd feel some guilt.

For me some of the turn on is the more unusual things these girls will let you do.

Also being slightly more selective about girl or the deed to do I find helps the experience and minimises regret.

Damn.. so this has been bothering you for 15+ yrs? Heck if you had a kid with that provider, he’s prolly out banging the same chicks as you do now.. since you started at 17!

Jokes aside.. take it easy! It’s prolly something else you are missing which is contributing to such feelings.

Hey bro, I wouldn’t get too hung up on it. We are all human and we all make rash, in the moment, decisions that we may regret afterwards when we have the benefit of hindsight.

If it makes you feel any better there was a good thread on bb working girls start by soundwave a while back. Here’s the thread:

https://forum.sex141.com/eforum/ ... id=72623&page=1

You’re not alone and other people have the same experiences and feelings you do.