So I started a long time ago, had my time at Bonham 123 in HK, and around. But the experience that somewhat was traumatizing was when I was 17, I visited Bonham. Went into a room, and met this provider who was hanging with one of the neighboring providers. They both giggled excitedly and asked me to join them. Being young and naive, and the fantasy of being with two women got me too horny, and I said yes. Surprisingly wasn't too expensive, but they took me into shower. Afterwards, they plopped me onto the bed, and started catbathing my body. The neighboring provider said she needed to close up her room, so she went out for a second and the other stayed with me. She was probably mid 30s, and started making out with me, got ontop, and shoved her pussy down.... without a condom. I was shocked and confused, and not sure what to think. She rode me like crazy and my mind went numb and ended up
. She sat down when I told her, and ended up filling her up. The other girl came back and was disappointed that I was done, but I was so freaked out and I didn't know what else to do. I don't even know what happened and honestly it kind of scares me not knowing if I have a kid out there or not.
Fast forward to today. I'm addicted to mongering, and everytime I do the deed, I end up feeling like shit. Not sure what to do, and it doesn't seem like I can escape my demons.
Sorry if this is the wrong place to post, but also thanks for reading my rant. Didn't know where else to go.