Definitely need to go get testing. There's no other way to get peace of mind. I've used Neohealth twice to curb anxiety. In both cases, I went because I had received BBFS in a drunken stupor and started freaking out that I was a dead man walking. Neohealth was fast, discrete, and expensive but worth it. Government clinics have a much longer turnaround on results than Neohealth and it was definitely worth it to me to pay the money so I could shorten the duration of my anxiety.
One thing that you will have to consider is that, after you get your clean bill of health, you may want to give up punting. The reason I say this is that if you are subject to this kind of anxiety, it's going to be just as bad the 2nd time around. It's not the type of thing that gets easier the more you do it. So, you need to figure out if it's worth it, and if not, figure out if there are other ways that you can get your jollies without being paranoid afterwards.
For me, I'm pretty good with everything up to BBFS, meaning I won't do BBFS. BBBJ and CFS don't freak me out. However, for you, you may find that you can't handle any FS at all, and can only do CBJ or HJ without anxiety. Next time out, I would just go to a rub and tug and see if it freaks you out, and then gradually try riskier stuff until you figure out where your comfort zone is.
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