I'm such an idiot
Ugh...
I freaking did it again. I'm soooo stupid.
Basically the same scenario as last year when I wrote this original thread. Wanchai + Indo girl (different one) + Drunk off my ass = BBFS mistake
Wanted to post my experience again.
In my drunken stupor, I was still able to remember how stressful it was last time I screwed up (almost a year ago). However, with my beer muscles going, I thought to myself that the last time I went through that anxiety was silly, and plowed ahead. Soooo stupid.
Next day, I was completely stressed. Even though I had already gone through this once, it was basically just as bad the second time. So... lesson learned... even if you've screwed up and wound up tested clean in the past, if you screw up again, there's a high likelyhood that you will be JUST as stressed out the second time around. This is, of course, assuming you stress out about this kind of thing, which, based on earlier comments on this thread, is a fairly common phenomenon.
Anyways, this time around, I tried to see if I could just deal with the anxiety without testing early. Last time, I tested after three days. This time, I wanted to wait until 6 weeks and then get tested. I lasted 2 weeks. What wound up happening was that, rather then lessening, the time that passed actually made it worse. So... assuming I'm a dumbass again and screw up again, I'm definitely not gonna try to work through my anxiety, and just get tested ASAP. So not worth it.
I wound up doing the Neo Health thing and got negative results 14 days after exposure. I still need to test again at 3 months but the HIV RNA PCR test after 14 days is well over 95% reliable after 14 days so I'm no longer stressing. | |
