Thanks
Bros, I appreciate all your comments. I wasn't looking for sympathy (although I appreciate the empathy) - was seeking an avenue where I could vent and not be judged.
All-in-all, I appreciate all your opinions and views. Admittedly, after having time to think and seeing how all this has been handled by my SO, I realize that we are over.
The worst part of this is feeling like I gave up. She is hard-headed (from Daegu...) and has too strong of pride to ever confront me with how she was feeling about our relationship before all this happened. The sad this is, I will never know if I should have said "sorry" just one more time to get her to turn around and try to forgive me.
Unfortunately, she is taking every route to make sure I suffer...no doubt about that. She has friends call me to cuss me out, she calls me when she is drunk to threaten me with killing herself...in my view, she has crossed the line. After having time to think, I realize that I cannot handle this anymore. I never expected her to not be uncivilized about all this, but for the sake of her health (not doing something stupid), I've given in to all her demands.
As per some of the posts by the Bros, I'm learning that I probably jumped into this marriage out of obligation rather than true love. I think my SO realizes this as well, which I think makes her the most sad and angry...
Anyways, I can't say that I'm doing well, but at least I am trying to look on the bright side.
Also, I know this forum isn't so much about getting advice, but I really do appreciate all the views and opinions. Some of the views have actually re-inforced my own thoughts over the past month. I didn't read a single meaningless post...so thanks. | |
