Reply #3870 SEAJ's post
Man, we've really delved into the deep end with this discussion.
Yeah, our affair is like nuclear fusion. Every time I see her I still go "Holy shit.., look at her!!". And then I wake in the morning (when we can do a rare overniter) with her still wrapped around me. Damn...
But I mentioned the "longing" as well, right? The complications. The "what if's?" The trust - or lack-thereof. - we both know the other sooo well -- all our good and bad, all our history. (We met in a Wanchai bar years ago - she a WG, me a punter). These relationships never seem to stay static in a simple state of mutual bliss. They try to grow and morph normally, as relationships do., yet the circumstances dont allow them to (or indeed we stop them from growing on purpose) and usually they fade away as a result.
This one hasn't. Seems we are still on the same page so closely that we both still jump thru hoops to be together.
Anyway.. Too heavy.
And yes, you are right, SEAj. Falling into this and not allowing it to change how you act at home is a challenge. I've had such thoughts during a bad moment -- and then looked at my life and family and went "whoa.., slow down asshole. You are part of a good thing here.... Don't fuck it up!". | |
