Reply #21 hulk2211's post
Hulk,
I know all too well your situation here. If your anything like me, my best suggestion is to stop digging up shit about hiv on the internet, out of sight, out of mind. There was a 3 month period roughly 4 years ago where I went crazy over a broken condom with a wg and didn't do fs with a wg until a month ago, just stuck to cbj's and hj's. During that 3 months, I got every kind of test possible, just like you, rapid, regular, rna, etc, all came back negative starting from the very first test. I was getting tested every week, switching hospitals weekly just so the staff won't think I'm crazy, I was even seeing a psychologist on a weekly basis for 3 months. This whole ordeal cost me a good amount of dough, thankfully getting tested in China is relatively cheap, but the foreign psychologist was not. Anxiety will create some crazy symptoms, I managed to get rashes on my arms, swollen lymphnodes/tonsils, don't let these things get to you, its probably just stress.
Anyways, best advice is to start believing the positive facts and leave it at that. It's gonna be a rough 30 days, lots of crazy thoughts, do your best to get thru it. | |
