Was just reading an interesting story in the papers – a whimsical flight of the imagination when all of a sudden something came rushing to my cerebral consciousness!! NO it wasn’t a Eureka moment type thing – but more like Omigawd…is this what it’s all about??!! OMIGAWD!!
I’ve often wondered about my recent devout devotion to this board, and why I would come back to it time and time again; definitely to excess and it’s not as if I’ve got anything to gain from it….or do I??
I’ve expounded on the sharing and caring and camaraderie and fun and games on here – but are these all really enough for me to get pretty well “addicted” to this forum??!! Oh sure, if it was just “something to do” when there’s nothing else – all that would fit the bill – but this heavy duty addiction? My alter-ego religion??!! LOL!! (errr….not really LOL, more like a smirk whilst shaking my head!!)
I’ve even tried to examine others’ pattern here; some may love coming on to show off how much he knows, some may just want to write about adventures he actually wishes he was having, and some may even actually tailor-make his adventures to fit the stories he tells here!! Woo Hoo!! And of course the journeyman mongers who just do it and report back – stellar characters, truly sharer and carers!! And then there are those who just really need to get up in the rankings to be able to see pictures…and possibly purloin them for their own nefarious uses. And talking about nefarious matters, guys who actually work for agents for rewards - whether monetary or otherwise??!! Jeez – we do have all sorts don’t we??!!
Then I look at myself. Have I got some kind of gnawing need that drives me time and time again to go back here? Even did a mental checklist to see if I was missing something about myself
- Happy, fulfilling family/SO/Kids – check
- Good sex life/romance in and outside of marriage – check
- Variety of experiences and ladies – check
- Accomplishments in life – check, even more than I deserve actually
- Financial stability – check – but can never have enough can one??!!
- Health – OK, but that’s to be expected at my age ain’t it?!
- Friends – lots of good friends that I’d never want for companion anytime
- Good/fair/responsible to my friends/family – check
- A busy, productive and meaningful life – check… I think!!
- Other enjoyments/interests, say travelling, reading, food, games, gym, watching TV, golf, recreational gambling, community service
etc – check (actually too much, to be honest)
(apologize for boring you with what I think of myself - probably sounding a bit self-indulgent in the process/something which I really should just keep to myself - but I DO want you to know that I HAVE given this matter a lot of thought!! So .....Sorry again!!)
So WHAT is it that makes me come back here obsessively? And some of you guys too – why do you guys come on here!! WHAT???!!! WHY??!!
Welll…it was when I was reading that piece (BTW – it’s a real nice essay by the winner of the RTHK/SCMP Top Story Competition in today’s Sunday Morning post, The Review pg 12 titled “ A special Gift.” Read it, you’ll be glad you did so!!) that “The Revelation” came to me! And it’s that I do enjoy coming on here as I am able to anonymously share with like-minded people, things that I wouldn’t dare share in my regular “civilian life.”
THAT…is what it’s all about!! I mean, one can only do “it” so many times in a week and so many times in a lifetime; but to have to keep it all quite a secret at all other times is quite a joyless thing ain’t it? That’s why my uncle loves to regale me with his stories, that is why sometimes I do have discussions about mongering with my real life buddies – but sooner or later, even good buddies will start to think something’s not quite right with Sean if all he talks about is sex, mongering, quality of gals/experience etc etc – right? Even with some of my mongering buddies. A “normal guy” has got to have a balanced life and not just be continually obsessed with sex – right? But sex and mongering etc HAS been and is such a huge part of my life up to now AND I AM quite obsessed with sex…. and I betcha most of you guys here are too – right??! So perhaps it’s a need I have, to share what I do know (not much actually) about things relating to sex and mongering! A know-it-all TOO sometimes…..I know, I know!! But it’s such a liberating thing to be able to just discuss mongering and raw SEX – ain’t it??!!
The above….or else I really just need to get a life!!
And so I come back on here………. time and time and time again………. Sigh!!
SEAN Sweet Swede
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