Reply to Yazoo
Ya know Yazoo, I lose count as well.
I guess this is why I love the barscene so much. There are so so many of these gals that are "in-between". It means they are super-easy to get into bed the first time, and, if you're a nice-enough guy, super-easy to fall into a simply wonderful BFE/GFE relationship. I suppose I instinctively fall for this type of gal, and maybe it's this "vibe" that attracts me -- cause I honestly don't think I plan it. We just go out and have a great time, and when I call up a second time everything is different - no more business, let's just spend time together.
The problem is..., you keep doing so with gal after gal and soon you have a floatilla of girls sms'ing you, stalking you, hunting you in bars, angry at you if they see you with someone else.
After some 4 years of playing this game it seems I can't turn a corner without apologizing to some gal!
Oh yeah, I met my sweet Joann today!! Of ALL of them..., of every girl I ever met..., this one could wrap me around a tree if she tried. I try to escape her but I can't. Man, we're going on 4 years now!!! Holy shit! That's awfully long for someone to just call a "regular"!!! I remain totally smitten.
Ahhhhhh. Girls!
EDIT: Ya see that last sentence I wrote. Self-therapy. This GFE/BFE game I play can cut both ways. In my mind I believe I am just her "Plan B" - if her current relationship does not work out she'll work on me a little harder. Once I almost threw everything away for this one..,, went kinda crazy for awhile - but managed to pull-up before crashing and burning. Yet I remain on the very-edge-of-sanity with her. I feel in my bones that I MUST get away from her -- but I just cant. I will say to myself "that's it" I'm done with her - and it will take her 10 seconds and 5 words or 1 kiss and my will is broken.
So you see --- I suppose I can find myself on the other side of all this from time to time.
[ Last edited by wander at 23-11-2011 16:21 ] | |
