my first time
I've always know that sex was a big deal. It was never something I had taken lightly. I was never they type of guy who agreed with the 'modern' views on sex, or how the media portrayed it as 'no big deal.' I knew that it need to be with someone I was serious about, someone I respected, someone I trusted, someone that I could see myself spending my life with.
I dated a girl for 15 months, we never did anything close being sexual. We had just dated because we were best friends and all our friends wanted us too. Neither of us could see us having any future after high school. So we didn't do anything, and I'm glad we didn't.
I first dated my current girlfriend in September of '09, but we broke up in November '09 because we realized that we had rushed into things. We didn't talk until January and seemed to be getting along. I realized that I had feelings for her again, and we went to prom together. Prom was terrible, and to be 100 percent honest, I was very angry with her and wanted nothing to do with her. I didn't think that we'd ever be friends again, much less a couple again.
A few weeks had passed and we had made up, I got over it, and so did she. My feelings grew stronger for her. I couldn't wait to go to school each day to see her. Then she graduated in June (she was a senior, I was a junior). We lost touch over the summer, except a little talk once in a while over Facebook. I thought I had gotten over her. In July, we saw each other again at church, and all the feelings came back again. But this time I knew that these weren't just "like" feelings. I loved her.
So we talked a lot more, met up more, all those good things. I knew I had to tell her. I wanted to tell her I loved her. I needed to tell her I loved her. I wanted to tell her in person, but due to timing issues we couldn't meet up. So I told her over Facebook, and she told me she loved me too, and had for a while.
We started going out on August 31st 2010. We talked about sex, and we said it was something we both wanted to do, but only if we were truly in love. So a few weeks ago we did. We were both nervous as we were both virgins, and had never seen a person of the opposite gender naked before. But when we finished we were both happy that we had given ourselves to each other. Our relationship is now much stronger thanks to it.
Sex is something beautiful, and is something that should be taken seriously. If you have a good relationship, like myself, it's something that will make your relationship better. If you're just doing it to get it over with, and so you can say you've had sex, don't do it. You’re most likely going to regret it. | |
